I am on such a high right now! ...not that kinda high ;) ... Today was chemo day, beginning of cycle four which would originally be my last cycle if I would've chosen the radiation route.. Only 5 more treatments and for me it is the much safer decision.
Lately, everyone has been telling me how close I am to being done. It wasn't really settling to me because I didn't know when that last treatment would be. Today I got the date. I feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel now. 6 weeks after my last treatment I will be getting scans to see how bad I kicked this thing's ass!
That was just the start to my great day.. Tonight my team played our rivals. A team who every single one of us hates. It's just how it's always been. In my four years playing we never beat them. We had overtimes and would always battle to the end and come up short. Last season they were the first team I was sidelined against due to my ACL and meniscus. They're the one team that I cannot stand watching the game and not being out there with my team. Tonight my sisters killed it. They beat this team with grace, pride, and heart. And I was out there... I was on our goalies arm in permanent marker, on our scrappy little defender's calf was a number 4. And the team carried me out there the minute they put on their fight like a girl shirts. They have carried me through more than anyone in the past year alone. Some of them have seen me through two knee surgeries, some of them witnessed my last knee injury..and posted it to Facebook.. Thanks Morgan! But every single one of these girls have carried me through the toughest battle of my life. There was no way chemo could've kept me from this game, from supporting these girls tonight, and for the pure joy in finally showing this team that we are better.
It's moments like today and tonight that make me appreciate every bump, battle, and blessing I have. Life can be hard, but we create our own happiness. That's why I keep pushing. I don't know what tomorrow holds, I don't know what my future scans will say, and I don't even know if I'll be able to stand up tomorrow after all this activity on chemo day. But what I do know is that at any given moment I have a team full of sisters to pick me up when I fall, an unbelievable family to support me in times that I may fail, and a faith in God and life that with the right attitude and enough fight anything is possible.
"Happiness is not a destination. It is a mood, it is not permanent. It comes and it goes. And if people thought that way, then maybe people would find happiness more often" -One Tree Hill
My spirits have never been higher. My faith has never been stronger.. And believe it or not my body was moving in the last 4 minutes of that game! I'm still not lucky, I am extremely blessed.
Lately, everyone has been telling me how close I am to being done. It wasn't really settling to me because I didn't know when that last treatment would be. Today I got the date. I feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel now. 6 weeks after my last treatment I will be getting scans to see how bad I kicked this thing's ass!
That was just the start to my great day.. Tonight my team played our rivals. A team who every single one of us hates. It's just how it's always been. In my four years playing we never beat them. We had overtimes and would always battle to the end and come up short. Last season they were the first team I was sidelined against due to my ACL and meniscus. They're the one team that I cannot stand watching the game and not being out there with my team. Tonight my sisters killed it. They beat this team with grace, pride, and heart. And I was out there... I was on our goalies arm in permanent marker, on our scrappy little defender's calf was a number 4. And the team carried me out there the minute they put on their fight like a girl shirts. They have carried me through more than anyone in the past year alone. Some of them have seen me through two knee surgeries, some of them witnessed my last knee injury..and posted it to Facebook.. Thanks Morgan! But every single one of these girls have carried me through the toughest battle of my life. There was no way chemo could've kept me from this game, from supporting these girls tonight, and for the pure joy in finally showing this team that we are better.
It's moments like today and tonight that make me appreciate every bump, battle, and blessing I have. Life can be hard, but we create our own happiness. That's why I keep pushing. I don't know what tomorrow holds, I don't know what my future scans will say, and I don't even know if I'll be able to stand up tomorrow after all this activity on chemo day. But what I do know is that at any given moment I have a team full of sisters to pick me up when I fall, an unbelievable family to support me in times that I may fail, and a faith in God and life that with the right attitude and enough fight anything is possible.
"Happiness is not a destination. It is a mood, it is not permanent. It comes and it goes. And if people thought that way, then maybe people would find happiness more often" -One Tree Hill
My spirits have never been higher. My faith has never been stronger.. And believe it or not my body was moving in the last 4 minutes of that game! I'm still not lucky, I am extremely blessed.
