I have a lot of updating to do. First let me explain why I haven't been blogging. I have accepted the fact that I am physically weak and exhausted all the time. I don't tend to let that stop me from doing things anymore. I just know that I need to rest every now and then. What I cannot accept is my mental weakness. I have always had a strong memory, I am insanely good with names after meeting someone once. I received extra credit in college because the second day of classes I was able to name every student in an elective class. Now, I can barely remember what I ate for breakfast! I started to notice how bad my memory was on spring break, when I'd want to tell the team something I could never remember what it was. I asked Lindsay for a notebook and pen, then forgot the notebook and pen! This has made school extremely difficult. I don't think my parents understood how bad, or frustrating this part of treatment is for me until I was trying to tell my mom a story. I must've attempted this story three times and would just forget what I was talking to her about. I became extremely frustrated and just started to cry. I hate it! I can't stand feeling like I don't have a brain. With online classes, I am pretty much teaching myself. Which is extremely difficult to do when I can't read, because I can't remember what I am reading. And I can't write a decent paper because I forget what I am talking about! I have fallen behind in classes, I am now only in one class because the professor is being extremely generous with time. 

On a more positive note, I have continued to witness greatness throughout all of these struggles. Friday, my team played Millersville University. From running this site I had seen that Millersville ordered 23 Fight Like a Girl t-shirts and assumed they would be warming up in them. Even with knowing that this was happening, I began to cry as soon as Lindsay and I walked across the field. Seeing the support from my team is overwhelming enough, but from another team in the conference just blew my mind! It was so uplifting to see their support. I spoke to their coach before the game, she was so kind hearted and caring, she said her team was on board with supporting me the minute she told them what was going on. I thanked the team after the game. Saturday our team hosted a "Stick it to Cancer" game. They were raising money for the Headstrong Foundation. Which is a lacrosse foundation for blood cancer. Shippensburg wore the lime green headstrong shirts, and the stands were filled with lime green. A majority of my team sported the number 4, some of them had phrases like, "Still we rise, Still we fight," on their calves, and some had, "Fight like a Girl." They kept saying that it was 'my day.' To me it was just another day of my team supporting me like they have this entire battle. They give me strength everyday I am around them. They keep me laughing and keep me sane. When I am with them I forget about being sick and just have fun. Leaving Slippery Rock on Saturday night, I couldn't stop smiling. I told my mom it was a great weekend. It was one I will never forget. I was with friends and family, being supported by complete strangers and looking forward to the day I can say, "Yes, I had cancer, I beat it though." 

I wish I had more time to update you all, and I will try my hardest to blog more. But right now there is a very cute, but extremely wild puppy demanding my attention! His name is Storm and he is a cancer/early birthday present. I need to go stop him from chewing my mother's carpets...Spirits up, Faith strong, Body moving. Tomorrow's a new day...and soon 'tomorrow' will be cancer free!